Hello, my name is Selena, and I have been through a journey of finding my way to this podcast, this microphone, my dear listeners, and finally here I am. As a molecular biologist and physiologist, with a PhD in Biochemistry and a Postdoc year in structural biology, cryoEM, many, including myself, would call me a scientist. But I am far more than that. I am a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a spirit, a child of God, a creation of stardust.
My journey started in the mid to late 80´s when the world still was reshaping itself into what it is today. I personally believe that people back then were much happier and more secure, and that they believed that dreams might come true. Nowadays, we are living in a world where that is called manifesting and people are sure that it works, there are all sorts of scripts and recipes how to do it. But I do not see that globally humanity became happier even though they can have that car, that house, that job. The opposite. The world became a hot war zone that is constantly shifting, peace is a word that we are using as something to find in our minds, not in the reality. West and East are not in sync and people do not understand each other.
What is left from the old world that can connect us and potentially heal us, are opposites that actually complement each other. For a very long time, people were denying the possibility of making a connection between polarity and coherent signal in between impossible incoherency. I am taking about making science and spirituality and religion work together, helping us to make our future realistic and visible.
Going through a pretty heavy period lately, I needed to find my theme song, or in other words a song that would cheer me up and make my body move or relax, either of those states is good depending on the situation. That has been a challenge, and I am a person who listens almost any type of music. This as I called it challenge or a task is deeply connected with knowing who you are, where you want to be and how you want to feel.
Not everyone needs this. Probably if I would talk about it with some of my cousins or neighbours, they would not know what I am talking about, but some of you out there for sure know that having your song, that you play in your mind on repeat, helps you clear your thought, especially negative ones and gives you the boost to do, go, say, anything. While I was trying to be my own therapist, I gave myself a task to find a song for this purpose, and it took me like two years to crystalize which one it is.
So, this story, can be an advice for you to find your song, but leads me to the point of finding who am I and why I needed a song for myself.
I was always a very sensitive child, later on defined as empathic person, open to higher frequencies, easy to communicate to people´s souls when they suffer, destined to be a healer. But early on, especially in my own home, I felt how much that can hurt my own soul, if I cannot control it, if I do not have a shield and some sort of protection. That said, I completely buried that talent, and turned to many other jobs, where my heart and soul would be safe. Needless to say, safety was not something that I was finding easy. But at least as I got older, I learned not to be afraid of my own possibilities, and recognitions. Meaning, if I feel that someone is not ok as a person, mean, vicious, with malintent, energetic vampire, I would distance myself from that person; if I feel that someone is feeling sad and tired, I would start a conversation and let the person tell their story. But I until I have learned to recognize who is who, I had to learn who am I. And that was the big process that took me concisely 14 years of my life. And I and I am still learning, big time. But I have my theme song. To keep me going and to keep me protected when I lose myself on the way just by reminding me that angels are there, taking care, I just fell temporarily.
I bet you wonder what is my song. Well, I wont sing, someone really has to make me sing, maybe some future guest of mine here on the podcast with an extraordinary reason. But I will give you a few lines of the lyrics so you can use almighty Google:
Oh, I see the light and the heat (in your eyes)
Oh, I wanna be that complete
I wanna touch the light, the heat I see in your eyes
(Peter Gabriel, In your eyes)
Why this podcast among so many? Because we need to find the path through the woods that leads us to the future without fear, war, but future where scientist collaborate with spiritual healer, and priest learns how to approach neurosurgeon and find the solution for the underlying problem. To idealistic? Maybe? But what do we lose if we try?
Anyway, step one. Do you know who you are? If not, even better. Just be ready to go on the wild journey!
Until next episode, love yourself, my alive and awaken ones!
Kisses,
Selena
Alive and Awake 